My wife and I are sitting on our queen bed right now visiting and writing, unfortunately the queen bed is still in my parents home and is 3 feet from my sons bed and 5 feet from my daughters bed.

This journey started last summer. I was sitting in a casino in Lake Tahoe talking to Triann on the phone who was at home. Like many weekends, and weeks, the band I play bass in (The Jessie Leigh Band) was on the road, and like many weekends and weeks I was sitting in one place while my family was sitting at home. Triann and I decided that day that we would do something we had hinted and teased about in the past, we would sell our home and move into an RV.

Tons of conversations, prayers, discussions, heated discussions, passionate and heated conversations, laughter and tears later we started the process. For us that meant putting the house on the market and hosting an estate sale. This all happened in September, with high hopes that we would have the house sold and have an RV in hand mid November.

The following is a post I wrote October 6th…

You have decided to bungie jump. You have said to yourself, I am willing to jump off a platform into nothing, and I trust the mechanics and engineering to keep me safe and deliver me the most amazing experience I can image.

Imagine you are up on the platform, lets make it a bridge. You’re on the bridge, having walked past the van and all the folks that are watching the jumpers. You’ve paid your money and you are standing on the platform. You are able to see over the edge down into the abyss. Lets call it a canyon. You’re looking into the canyon, and you decide OK. I trust this company. I trust this guy. I want to feel the sensation of flying. I want to experience this. I’m ready. You take a deep breath and say to the operator… “OK, lets go!”. The operator looks at you and says “you made the right choice”. “Now let me make your bungie cord”. What???? He has to make the cord for you. He asks you questions about your height and weight, does some quick math and begins to weave together a cord so you can jump. So now you are standing on the platform, trying to keep up your courage, telling yourself that you made the right call while you watch him slowly put your cord together. Then as you convince yourself for the 4th time that you have made the right choice and this will be something you will remember forever, a conquering of your fears, he tells you that he needs a few parts that will not be in until tomorrow and asks you to come back. Do you do it? Does your determination hold up? Does your fear stay at bay? Does the bold decision that you made in the moment hold up to a nights worth of scrutiny? A weeks? A Months?

Have you ever bungie jumped? I haven’t, I’m too scared to even think about it. Yet it is the best analogy I can come up with for our current situation. I have no experience with jumping, have never even considered doing it, but again, here it is. Stuck in my head as a way to explain where I am. My bride of 21 years and I decided that we should take our two kids (14 year old daughter and 10 year old son) on an adventure while we can. We decided to sell our belongings and our house and purchase an RV. We decided to continue our homeschooling of the kids on the road, and work our jobs remotely. We decided to hold an estate sale and sell all of our belongings that we didn’t need on the road or wouldn’t fit into the storage containers we set aside for our treasures. We decided to list our house, knowing that in the current market it would sell quickly.

We didn’t decide what we would do if it didn’t all work the way we planned.

As I sit here writing this, I am in a mostly empty home. We completed the estate sale and sold or donated the majority of our things. The problem is we have not sold the house. We haven’t even had any serious inquiries. That was a critical piece of the plan. Sell the house and use the proceeds to pay of the remainder of a car loan and purchase an RV cash. No debt, no problem. Except… we haven’t sold the house.

I’m standing on the edge of the abyss. Lets call it a canyon. Did I make the right choice? Do I have the courage to stand here and wait while the guy makes my bungie cord? It feels like exactly the same thing. We made the decision, and we are ready to go, but there are delay’s out of our control and now we have to look at this decision and decide if we have the guts to wait it out. Will we lose our nerve? Will we decide it was a bad idea and just give up?

I don’t know…

I do know that someone else bigger than me is in charge. I know that my wife and I are confident that we have been listening to that someone and feel like this is the right choice. I know that we are both confident we have made good choices on this, but even with all that confidence we still have to wait.

So we wait.

Well, here we are… still waiting

We are much closer. The house has sold, we purchased a motorhome, but it is in the shop with some known repairs and we are still sitting in my folks extra room.

I will be frank and tell you that I am exhausted. I am ready to be done with the whole thing and in our own space and starting our adventure. But maybe I’m looking at it wrong. Maybe the adventure has already started. Maybe the point is that we are so ready to move on that when we get into our new tiny home it will feel amazing to be in our own space, and we will overlook any of the inconveniences that we may have noticed?

We’ll see… and I’ll share what we find out.